Holidays and family...

So it's almost Christmas time and I have been doing really good! I'm trying this new eat healthy thing which is really exciting for me because I actually enjoy it and I feel better throughout the day. I'm not so sluggish anymore! Although I still need like 12 hours of sleep a night which I'm lucky if I get 5 hours :(

I've learned that it's extremely hard to live at home with my fried food loving parents and keep a healthy diet. They love fatty foods and they love eating out. I really just want to start making protein shakes in the mornings for breakfast but I need some ideas. I'm going to get tired of banana and peanut butter all the time! So if you read this and have some good ideas, let me know!

I'm starting to close of this year in my life and the next few weeks will be hectic and crazy but I am quite determined to start 2013 with a fresh blank slate and focus on my life and my future. Many changes to come and hopefully this time next year, ill be talking about buying my first house and maybe even being in a steady healthy relationship! HAHA We will just have to wait and see what a new year hold for me ;-)

It's time for new goals and a new life plan! I accomplished ALL of my goals in 2012 with a few extras (both good and bad) along the way! My plan is to figure out plan my goals for next year (since the world isn't ending in 3 days) in the next week and my last post of 2012 will be my weight and self focused goals for the new year! Along with a resolution or 2 :)

STAY TUNED....

The start of something new...

“All human actions have one or more of these seven causes: chance, nature, compulsion, habit, reason, passion, and desire.”
― Aristotle, Selected Works

In the past year, I have tried to accomplish several things but something always seems to get in the way. Today, on my first day back to work since my tiny little Thanksgiving getaway, I came across this quote from Aristotle and it really touched me where I needed to be for a long while.
   Chance was me meeting all the people that have come into my life when I needed them.Being only for a few months or forever. These people have changed my life and help make me the person I am today, with the strength, I never knew I had in me!
   Nature was in full swing in July-September of this year. It was nature that put me on a course of discovery. Something that I didn't think would happen for a very long time, happened and it was AMAZING for the short amount of time and then once again nature came through and decided a different course for me. At the time, I though what did I do to deserve this?! But less than a few weeks later, that answer was very clear. I know understand and truely believe the quote "Everything happens for a reason." I celebrated, regreted, denied, accepted, grew and learned from that brief period of time and because Stronger!
   Compulsion is something that definitely keeps you on your toes. Be it, complusion buys (like I love to do), compulsive choices in relationship- which I also tend to do. Oh to love quickly and hurt forever. Complusion can be a good thing or a bad thing and for me, it has been both. Without the bad what would you have to look forward to if every choice you made was good and the right one.
   Habit is the way I always want to help people, even if I know this is going to hurt me in the end. I have a strong habit of putting myself in situations that are boardering on fairtale or disaster and 99.9% disaster prevails, but it never stops me. Like they say... old habits die hard :)
   Reason is everything I do!. It is never for myself, underneath it all, every choice I make I do for somebody. Whether it be for myself or someone else that I care about deeply, I always have a reaon for doing the most out of this world brainiac things and I love almost every minute of it.
   Passion is the center of everything. Without passion, what are you doing anything for? My life would be very boring if I wasn't passionate about helping my friends and going to school. Without passion, I would never live. Oh my gosh, I'd be a couch potato or worse...a moocher! I have passion to work and make something of myself so that one day I can provide for my family the way my parents have provided for my sister and I. In my opinion, Passion keeps your heart beating in a way that when you do get those butterflies in your stomach and a twinkle in your eye, Everything seems worth it!
   Desire is to reward yourself. If you desire something, won't you do anything you can to get it? Desire for me is my dreams, my fairytale ending. I don't care how many people come and go in my life, I only need the people that matter so the desire I have for Prince Charming has to eventually come true. Every girls vision of Prince Charming is different...for me he is the man that makes everything else move in slow motion. The man that doesn't make me the center of his world but make the world our playground with us standing in the middle, holding hands with no intention of ever letting go. That is desire!
                      
                                   August 2011                                  June 2012
I have started this blog to keep track of everything I wish to accomplish from here on out. Many of you may not know this but in October of 2011 I weighed almost 200 lbs and was depressed and disgusted in myself. I started working out with a trainer, Jonathan, at Anytime Fitness in Perry Hall and it truely changed my life, he changed my life, he saved my life! Since then I have lost 32 pounds and am still counting. I am still training with him and loving every minute of it! Now that 2012 is coming to a close, I want to make another change (aside from cutting my hair off and donating it which was a huge deal for me). Last year my change was my weight. This coming year, I want to change my lifestyle! I am happy with the weight-loss but I am still struggling with being comfortable with my body. Starting December 1, 2012 I will be changing my eating style for the first time ever! This is going to be very hard for me since I live at home and my parents like all the foods that I need to avoid. Every month I am going to make a new goal and hope that with that it will keep me blogging and keeping track of everything. It is time for me to be proud of myself and be happy to look in the mirror. To recognize the person looking back at me for the first time in 5 years. All I ask of you is to follow me in my journey and give me encouragment. I do everything I can but sometime the down is really down. Support me and be positive, give me any helpful recipies or excercises!